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1 week break

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 02:00:40 GMT

Been quite a while since i last updated my blog... My trials exam is just over and now having 1 week break... break for the mental huh? Feeling regretful now because i know i didn't do quite well for my trials... but its over now and what can i do about it? Really desperate now because i need a scholarship to go to Australia to study but to have that i need an excellent result and yet i'm not working SUPER HARD for it. Chain effect. Lolz.

Trying not to think so much now..... if not i would go crazy... Went to karaoke with a friend on last Friday... My singing really sucks.. couldn't go high key at all. But its fun to sing.. Got charged RM10 for the stupid NUTS. Conned >"<.

Sorry

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 10:31:34 GMT

I would like to say sorry to everyone i have offended. I'm wrong, absolutely wrong to make such a comment of a person. Life has not been good this year, many things are going through my mind and when i face a slight trouble, i would burst, saying things i don't mean at all. I admit that i'm really mad in controlling my emotions. I'm a mere mortal and i have my weakness.. Being paranoid in nature, at times i really do things that can offend other people to protect myself. After what happened, i know my life probably won't get any better. I don't want to ask for compassion because it would show that i'm a weak person... I'm probably really weak, mentally and emotionally. Things that have been done is done, the scar is there and you can't do anything about it.

I really don't want to talk too much about this, because sincere or not, it depends on what the person thinks about it. I hope you all will forgive me. Thank you.

Unreleased The Dark Knight Poster

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 10:28:54 GMT

If you haven't watched the latest Batman yet, you probably don't know that Edison Chen actually appeared in the movie for 3 seconds.

Tennis outfits

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 09:01:16 GMT

As usual, i was looking for some tennis news then suddenly found an article about Serena Williams' tennis outfits... Saw some funny pictures that i would like share with you people. Well, as you know Serena has never been shy of what she wears on the court.

Going for a dinner or a tennis match?

Lets hope she is the new Catwoman in the future Batman movies.

Yeah, she must be feeling very hot playing tennis....

Does she just come out from a zoo?

Nonono, Sharapova.. this is for going to a "ball"... not "tennis ball".....

Home alone with sister

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 09:42:00 GMT

Emm.. so when is the last time i have seen my mum..... 60 hours... right.. 60 hours! My mum and my brother went to Australia on Monday (My brother will be studying there for 2 years, good luck bro!), and my mum will only be back on Sunday... Since my dad is working in China, only me and my sister will be at home for this week... Pretty cool? Yeah, that was what i thought about when my mum first told me bout it.... Well, seems like its not so cool now.

Problem no.1: I and my sis have to cook for ourselves everyday.... o.O So what have i eaten so far.... I had Korean Maggi Mee with tofu, vege and eggs for the first day..... then yesterday i had white sauce vegeroni... and today (i'm running out of ideas!) i decided to go out to eat later.

Problem no.2: No transports! Well, been OKAY so far since i have been going to school everyday by school bus (TQ to Kar Yan for bringing me to the station every morning!).... However, this means i would not be able to go tennis for the weekend.... T.T... Nooo.... playing tennis in the weekend is what i look forward everyday and now no transports means no tennis. I have only myself to blame as i have been so LAZY that i don't want to attend the bloody 5 hours driving talk....

There are also problems like washing clothes, cleaning the house... Haha, i'm a hell lazy boy isn't it?
Really missing my mum alot now..... well, not only because of those works but i really want to talk to her.... She has always been my best friend and her presence makes me feel happy ( obviously not when we're arguing).
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Sometimes i really wonder that whether its my personal problem that people don't really care what i say... This really frustrates me alot because everytime during discussion in class, i try to voice out my opinion, people will either ignore it or take it as crap. I'm really trying to help, to be a part of it... but people just won't let me do it... I really don't know what can i do to make them listen! Its not like i'm stupid (at least my results don't show that
=.=) Or perhaps i shall just shut up everytime during discussion.

Picture of me when i was in Tokyo Disneyland. My hair was so LONG that time. Now "abit" shorter ba. Hahah.

Resurrection of Kian Nam's blog

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 09:57:49 GMT

Yeah, its true, i gonna revive this blog and start writing again. I will probably change my approach to this blog... Talk more abit of my life and less tennis i guess. No one will give a damn to my blog. Lolz, its not like i give a damn to them. Hahaha.

Life in Taylor's has not been what i have wanted. Maybe because i have lost many of my friends in CHS.. or maybe not lost, just that we contact each other lesser and lesser now. The only consolation so far is that i'm actually getting good results, but i have realized that good results can't give me enough satisfaction. Yeah, i'm getting good results, so what? People see me as a nerd anyway. True friends definitely don't come easy. In this moment, they may be talking to you because you are useful to them, the next moment, *pop* and they are gone because you have no value to them.

Nevertheless, life may not be what i want it to be now... but being Kian Nam, which of course is me, will never give up. At least i know there are people who actually care about me.

Results are overrated!

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 08:46:12 GMT

"Results are overrated!", i stole this quote from Eu Chern's friend. She can't be more right.. results ARE overrated.

Yesterday i went back to CHS for the first time in many months... Guess what was my first sight... Pn Fong conducting spot check She was probably too free at that moment.. Lolz.

Met many old friends.. They have changed alot (hairstyle??... figure??) Me and Eu Chern went to see Ms. Yong.. Hate to admit this but i do miss her quite a bit... Well, i was an active UBK member afterall... She looked happy to see us both.. We chatted abit then took a photo.

Then, i saw a teacher was surrounded by a group of students. I went forward and found out that she was holding a paper with names of students that got 9A and above... I scanned through the paper and saw my name.. Its written under the 9A column. At that very moment, i felt relieved.. 9A... what could i expect more.. i am not a student who study 24/7 (lolz, not even 5 hours per day)

After a long wait, the teachers finally distributed the exam result slips to the student. Eu Chern got 6As and apparently he wasn't that satisfied with his results. For me, 9A may look like a very good results, but if compared to others, it looks so common.. it won't even get me a scholarship i guess. Perhaps its too late to whine about anything... the results show that i need to work harder and there is no free lunch in this world... The world is so cruel and we have to live with it.

We went to Mid Valley and watched 10000 BC with another friend. The movie is okay but lack of some good story line.

Life in Taylor's

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 08:27:54 GMT

I remember that before i was in Taylor's, some people once referred "SAM" as Self Abused Matriculation.. I really agree on it wholeheartedly now. I have assignments and test almost every week and its driving me crazy! Haha, guess those who experience this won't call Pre-U year the honeymoon year anymore... Good thing in college is that we have a tennis club.. which of course there isn't any during my days in CHS. They have practice every Thurs... at least thats something i can look forward to...Got back some of my results... Got 3.9/5 for Econ Common Test 1, 3.75/5 for Maths Quiz, 4/5 for IT Common Test 1 and 4.375/5 for A/C Common Test 1... Well, pretty average but i'm okay with... don't think i really study that hard for all of them (was revising them when i was watching TV the day before the exam LOLZ!)Nothing much to say.. i don't want to make this another post about TENNIS. =) 87 wordsSpeed test99 words

Speed test

Tennis, tennis, and still tennis!

Fri, 01 Feb 2008 09:21:43 GMT

Sorry for the MIA, i have been quite busy these days and knowing me that i'm a lazy boy... i decided to take a break from blogging and now i'm back in action.

After coming back from China after a long long vacation there (couldn't login to Xanga, the country block this site), i kicked off my college life and currently studying SAM in Taylor's.. Got into class T2, its a great class with many great and interesting people.. and i love the subjects i'm studying now... no more science!! Hahahaha. Australian Open has just ended last week and was disappointed that Federer didn't win it.. But afterall he's a human and he was sick when he played the tournament. He will come back with a BANG. You hear this from me FIRST!

(Ok, i'm forced by someone to post this into my blog!) Yesterday, me and my friend (lets just call him "Short") played tennis. This is the 4th time we playing tennis together. I pretty much rushed to my house then changed my clothes and everything. Sidenote here, i fell down infront of my house, definitely not a good thing to happen before a tennis match...

The weather was gloomy when we reached the club.. was expecting it to rain but it didn't happen. Thank god.
Before this, i played with Short for 3 times and i was thrashed everytime. I told myself that i won't let him win again.

I started badly in the match... Got broken in my first game and was 4-1. Then i started to use my topspin backhand more and eventually won the 1st set in 6-4. YES, i told myself, finally i got 1 set from this guy.. guess this is my chance to win the match.

The 2nd set i broke Short in the 1st game.... everything was with me.. but a mental lapse caused my set and he beat me 6-3 in the 2nd set.

In the 3rd set (final set), i was very tired... (rushed from school to house).. but this is not the reason i lost. I broke him at 4-3 and got a chance to serve for the match at 5-3.... However, another mental lapse struck me and he forced it into 5-5.... I tried everything i could and got into 6-5 (when i held my serve at 5-5, i thought i won the match... then only knew that its only 6-5.. what the hell man). He held his serve and forced it into a tie break. Then, fatigue and mentally weak took over me and he won the match 4-6 6-3 7-6(7-4).

Ok, my 4th straight loss to Short. I'm lost, confused and have no idea how to beat him. He slices the ball very well and mentally he's stronger than me and he knows my game very well. He worked a strategy out to win the 2nd and 3rd set. But i can't give up YET, no way... i gonna beat him.. Hahahaha. Short, you will lose to me next time we meet.

Crapping!

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 01:35:30 GMT

Part 1: On the Outside

Name : Loke Kian Nam

Date of Birth : 24th June 1990

Current Status : Single, and intend to stay Single =)

Eye Colour : Black (dull isn't it?)

Hair Colour : black (Argh)

Righty or Lefty : Yeah, i'm a lefty =)

Zodiac Sign : Cancer.

Part 2: On the Inside

Your Heritage : Pure Chinese

Your Fear : Snakes, being lonely

Your Weakness : Easily persuaded.

Your Perfect Pizza : Hawaiian chicken!

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

Your thoughts first waking up : got school today?

Your bedtime : 12 Midnight

Your most missed memory : Days in CHS

Part 4: Your Pick

Pepsi or Coke : Coke..

McD's or Burger King : McD

Single or Group Dates : Group dates (sounds interesting)

Adidas or Nike : Nike, because *ahem* uses it

Lipton Tea or Nestea : Nestea!

Chocolate or Vanilla : Vanilla! Chocolate is too common!

Cappucino or Coffee : Coffee =)

Part 5: Do You . . .

Smoke: No, i hate people who smoke!

Curse : "Bitch" ?

Drink : Yeah, abit of beer won't kill.

Part 6: In the Past Month

Drank alcohol : Last week.

Gone to the mall : Yesterday.

Been on stage : Nope.

Eaten sushi : Many months ago?

Dyed your hair : No. Asked my mum bout it but she didn't seem to like it.

Part 7:Have You Ever?

Played a stripping game : No, but not bad for try.

Changed who you were to fit in : Yes, this is life isn't it?

Part 8: Age

You're hoping to be married : After 25 @.@

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl

Best eye colour : Light Blue

Hair colour : Blonde

Short or long hair : Long hair

Part 10: What Were You Doing?

1 minute ago : Doing this crap!

1 hour ago : Eating breakfast!

1 month ago : SPM SPM SPM SPM!

1 year ago : Day dreaming because school started!

Part 11: Finish The Sentences

I love : tennis!!

I feel : life is too short!

I miss : friends, school, my secondary school life.

I need : to learn to adapt in a new enviroment

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Sorry for late posting. Been playing alot of tennis these few days since i have come back from China. Yeah, Pocky... who wants to claim this?